Confident BeginnerA Jack of no Trades
Welcome Back, Natter.
Wow. wow wow wow guys.
Do you remember who I am?
Months, Years, Millennia ago, you either bookmarked, signed up for, or generally became aware of the artist formerly known as ‘Confident Beginner’, just to have her delicately wisp out of your inbox and your life for 3 whole god damn holy lonely months.
Where did she go? You wondered.
Did she stop using the internet? You pondered late at night, deep into your sewing blog binge.
Has she given up sewing altogether? A thought you had in the dark recesses of your mind, desperately hoping this wasn’t the case – but as the days meandered on, this devastating premonition seemed more and more likely in the desperate wasteland which was confidentbeginner.com
LOLZ JK GUYS I’M STILL FUCKING HEEEEEERREEEE.
As it turns out, changing your life around in the span of 6 months takes up a heck of a lot of time and a heck of a lot of long ass mother flippin days. Not to say that I have any more time now, necessarily, but I can begin to return to the things I love most in the entire world: sewing, netflix, and having people love and adore me unconditionally. All the things that are beautiful on this earth.
Because you are most assuredly already bored of this post, I am going to summarize a few hot tops and then we can get into some good shit:
- I am now a student of fashion. Take that: bank account, job security, and rrsp’s! Fuck you, I want to be FASHUN.
- I now work at a fabric store part-time. It’s real! This is my real life! And to answer the two questions I know you already have: no, most of my paycheques do not go towards fabric (but dear sweet jesus does that take hella willpower), and yes, I delicately fondle allllll of the fabrics all day every day.
- I have only sewn 3 things this entire summer. DON’T LOOK AT ME, I’M A HIDEOUS GARBAGE PERSON.
Ok. I think you’re all caught up now.
I had my very first day of fashion school yesterday, and boy howdy was it nothing that I was expecting. Industrial machines are very fast and pattern drafting is very precise. I plan on doing a few bloggie posts about fashion school as the weeks go on, but for now I just need a few days to decompress and process the idea that I am not as good as I thought I would be. Perfection isn’t everything, Natasha. Just repeat that over and over again as you cry yourself to sleep at night.
I have a few blog posts coming up of the minimal amount of makes I actually have finished this summer (and hopefully those will not take another 3 months to come out). I also have a few very exciting things in the ol’ mind palace that I can’t wait to start making and wearing the shit out of. I’m thinking knits. I’m thinking stash busters. I’m thinking getting hard into that #gothlife that I love so much. Basically what I am trying to say is: bitch got a lot of thoughts.
In conclusion: I hope you know I still exist as a human and a person and a member of the sewing community. I hope you are still interested in reading my silly blog because eventually I will be super famous and everyone will love me, much like Cardi B started off small and then rose to the top and met our true kween Beyonce. Finally, I hope you still love me, because undeniable and unwavering internet stranger love is what I want, nay, need in this world to survive.
Your ol’ pal
Confident Beginner (aka. Natasha)